I don’t think I have ever looked forward to a new year as I am right now. Truly. 2015 has been pretty rough for my family, and I’m looking forward to starting fresh in 2016!
As some may know, I lost my first furry child (my beautiful Golden Retriever, Kayla) in March after 12 wonderful years. She was the best pet anyone could ever ask for. Sadly, two months later, my father passed away from cancer (which no one knew he had).
Something else happened in 2015 that I’m looking forward to moving on from. Since I was 15 years old, I’ve had feelings for a certain person who I believed was a friend. Sadly, a few years ago that person broke my heart to a million pieces. I was raised to be a forgiving person, so I forgave them and went back to being friends. Being there for them when they needed someone to boost their ego, making plans with them for me to visit and being pushed to the side with a million excuses when I was there, and unintentionally postponing my life because a long time ago, they asked me to wait for them. This person got married this year and is now a father. Now, in all honesty…I am happy for the life he’s created for himself and his new family, and I’ve been open to meeting someone new for a while now, but I can’t lie and say my heart doesn’t hurt to see it all. In all these years, I maintained the feeling of wanting to remain friends, but I think I finally realized that we might not have ever truly been friends. As much as that hurts to say…in order to start 2016 off right, it’s time to leave the heartache in the past. I’m not getting any younger! 🙂
Instead of creating unrealistic resolutions for the new year, I’m making simple promises to myself. To learn how to love myself again after some have torn me down (corny, I know), to create and maintain a healthy lifestyle for myself and my family, to focus on finishing school and to appreciate the people in my life more than I have in the past. Losing people I love in the past 3 years has taught me to stop worrying so much and to just try to enjoy life.
So, I hope everyone has a great start to 2016, and make sure to check back in often! I hope to keep up with my site and to create more original posts!